I Would Have


As time goes by and we're apart, I think of how things could have been. What we could have said or done to work things through. I would have been more understanding and not so judgmental, more loving and not so hurtful. I would have told you I loved you and cherished you more often. I would have promised you that there can never be, nor will ever be another person who I admire like you, or who has reached the depths of my heart like you have. I would have told you that I'm so very proud of how far you've come and the things you have accomplished.

But how could I ever find the words or the actions to explain to you just how much I love you? It would take a million lifetimes to even comprehend my feelings. If such words were easy to express, I would have told you that you took my breath away the very first time I met you. I would have told you that you made be believe in love the first time you kissed me or that you stole my heart the moment you uttered those magical words. I would have told you that every time I looked into your eyes, I saw my destiny. My one and only. My soul mate, my best friend, my lover, my husband, my inspiration, and the father of my children.

I can still close my eyes and feel the softness of your lips against mine and your tender fingers as they caress and explore my body. I would have told you that my knees and my entire body would tremble every time you looked deep down into my eyes and explored my very soul. You made me feel like you could read my innermost thoughts. Life just isn't anything without you.

I wish that there was a way to make time stop, so we could go back to the time when we where happy. We both know that before we can go back to when we were one, we need to rethink some things about ourselves, in order to make this relationship last. I hope that one day we can find a way to get past this, but until that day comes, I want you to know that I will wait for you a lifetime if necessary, because my love for you is never ending. Don't let our love fade away and our memories scatter to the winds. I'll wait until you come back into my arms (where you belong). I'll love you from now until death and forever onward. There is nothing or no one that will ever change that.