All I wanted from the start was to be with you. God knows how much you mean to me, not only as a friend, but with deeper, greater feelings as well.

As you know me by now, this is a way for me to pour out my heart to you, to let you know it's dying because you're gone.

You brought back the light into my life when all I could see was darkness. You brought back the smile to my face when all I could do was frown. Most importantly, though, you brought back the love and trust that I had lost for people. We shared plenty of moments where we opened up to each other and shared our secrets, our feelings of happiness, sadness, sometimes anger and intimacy. We promised each other that, no matter what, we would always be together because fate had decided we would be. But now you have decided that it's not what you want any more.

How can this be? Why now? Why now when my heart fully belongs to you? Why now when I have fallen in love with you? Why now when I was ready to be with you for the rest of my life? I find fate can turn out so cruel and twisted; it's always getting my hopes up, just to bring them back down again. Each time the pain comes back, it's stronger and longer.

Why did you do this to me, when you knew I would have done anything for you? When you knew that all my hopes and dreams surrounded you? When you knew that not having you in my life would cause me so much pain? But I know I can't change your mind and, more importantly, I can't change what you feel in your heart, so all I can do is ask you, why?

I miss you every moment.