What Hurts the Most


So much is on my mind, although I don't know where to start. To be honest with you, I really think our love is dying. Things don't seem to be the same anymore. I really love you and I want to be with you, but this is not how to go about it.

The first time we broke up, you told me you wanted me back and that you loved me. It seemed like it was true, but now I don't know where our relationship stands. I'm feeling really confused. I don't know if I'm your girlfriend or just someone you can make love to. I need answers.

What happened to you coming over here after work, or you calling me on your lunch break? You don't tell me you love me anymore, either. I really miss all of that and want things to go back to the way they were.

I really wanted to tell you that when we saw each other at the game. You know what hurt the most? You didn't even come over and say, "Hey," or give me a kiss, a hug, or anything, and I'm supposed to be your girlfriend. When do you plan on showing me that I am? It really hurts to know that my own boyfriend--the one who supposedly loves me--can't come over and say "Hello," or anything, but when you're not with your friends and it's just you and me, that's another story.

I'm just going to have to leave you. I don't want to do it, but I want things the way they used to be, and it looks like that won't happen. I love you but your love obviously isn't as strong as you say it is.

I love you and that's for certain, and I always will.