She Never Knew


It has been about a year and a half since seeing, hearing, and feeling you next to me. I hope you know that you are still all that is important in my life. Though you made the decision to stop acknowledging my existence in your life, I can never escape the pain and sorrow of the void you have left in my heart and soul. With each passing day, every time I remember to breathe, I die a little more.

On the day you asked me to let you go, you didn't know I had planned a new beginning for us. I had planned it all out perfectly--buying the ring that I could afford at the time--and finishing what I should have done a long time ago by finalizing the steps I needed to start our new future. I had gone to court the previous day and turned in all the paper work necessary to begin our new life together. But you asked me to let you go instead.

As time went by, I started getting used to living alone, but I never gave up hope that you would come back, yet all this time has passed, and I have come to the reality that I would never see you again. The ring I bought, the life I planned, and the happiness I had dreamed of are all imaginary images now that will continue to torture me as time goes by. If only you knew who I really was, how much I loved you, and the proposal I had planned to make to you that very day.